woke up at 5. feels good. i am not tired. matthew told me a funny dream of his about "cheers mate, hello".
was too a chicken to cycle to gym though, i don't know. ah, i never wrote but still i got a check from the inland revenue. very pleasant indeed. and my ex agency finally sent me my p45. so, it's all good.

work is good. apart from i think i ve lost all my people skills over the three years in london. i don't feel like being friends with everyone at work, some of them i don't even find interesting, so obvious their motives and ways are, those with whom i'd like to get close and whom i'd like to get to know i really cann't be bothered do so, since it's so much work to make a new friend. see! that's it. making friends shouldn't be a tedious job, a chore, if it is oh just forget it.
never mind, natasha might be coming over next month, and you know what matthew is mybest-est friend in the whole world. love you babes